Thursday, June 21, 2012

book club tonight & making sense of despair

I didn't like this book. at all.  
That is until I went to book club tonight.....

and heard jane read her favorite part.  It was enchanting.
I think I would have loved the book if she had read the whole thing to me.

Then to be cozy all together discussing the book, and life, with some
of the most amazing women, and friends.  well, it is just something
i am really going to miss.

a lot.

especially while sipping limeade, and 

eating Jane's homemade peach cobbler.

The book was kind of a tragedy of sorts, and then we started discussing 
the tragedies that we see around us.  Sad things happen in this life.
It seems almost daily that i learn of another heartbreaking situation
in the life of a friend.  
Let alone so many atrocities that happen all over the world every day.
I can understand how one might feel
overwhelmed, fearful, and overcome with it all.

One of the characters in the book felt this way.  But in her moment of
despair she was able to recognize a moment of pure peace and beauty.
Here are her thoughts on the matter.

"Thinking back on it (her moment), this evening, with my heart and my stomach
all like jelly.  I have finally concluded, maybe that's what life is about:
there's a lot of despair, but also the odd moment of beauty, where time is no
longer the same.  It's as if those strains of music 
created a sort of interlude in time, something suspended, an elsewhere 
that had come to us, an always within never.
From now on, I'll be searching for those moments of always within never.
Beauty in this world"

I edited the quote slightly and didn't give all the details to not give away the book's
secrets, in case you want to read it.  Warning, it takes half way through the book to start
to really enjoy it. At least that's what they tell me. ha.

But isn't that the truth? Amid the despair, there are moments of pure peace, understanding,
and beauty.  And we appreciate them all the more knowing that they don't last.
Like youth, like flowers, like sunsets. etc.  They are special moments
in time where the world seems to stand still and our spirit is renewed.
We are strengthened by the good and beautiful.

A couple of days ago I had one of those moments as I enjoyed the 
beauty of these roses.  I actually felt my Heavenly Father's great love for me
as I thought of the enjoyment that looking at beautiful flowers truly brings me.
  A lot of thought was put into creating
such a wide variety of flowers with all their amazing colors and details.  
Really, everything detail of beauty on this earth. 
 I am so grateful.  Grateful for the beauty of this earth, and for that moment 
in time when I really felt that gratitude.

Today's moment came when I was rushing around, moving 
laundry, cleaning up, making dinner, so I could get to book club.
I was also very distracted thinking about some sad news I received today.
And constantly praying for them. 
 I asked ammon to get in his seat to eat his dinner.  
His reply was, 
"Mommy, I just want to cozy you on the couch,"
in his little sweet voice.
He didn't want to eat, he just wanted my undivided attention for a moment.
No distractions, no racing around, just hugging and being together.
It was one of those beautiful moments that you stop and savor.

Like book club tonight.
It was one of those long wonderful moments of warm goodness.
Something I will remember always, and be grateful for
when the moments of despair come.
And they come all right.
But oh those precious moments.  They are there for the taking.
That is the taking notice of.  Look for them.
I would love to hear one of your latest favorites.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Found this thrown out, and was super excited.  It is real wood and in great working condition.  Just needs some love.  Glor and Kelly....ideas for refinishing it?  Anyone?

Thursday, June 14, 2012

last day of school!

whoop whoop!

We're so korean. smile.

When my sister and I lived in Japan she had their family picture taken in japanese traditional clothing.  They were so beautiful, and I wanted to do the same thing but never got around to it.  So I was bound and determined to make it happen when we were here in korea. To have a family picture in hambuk, the traditional korean clothing.  I have talked about it the whole two years we have been here.  Here we are down to the last month and no picture.  So I enlisted my friend Jihyun to help me make it happen.  She has helped me make a lot of things happen in the past two years.  I told her last night that she is going to realize when I leave what a burden my friendship was.  She will be so carefree without my constant pleas for help.  I will really miss her.  But lets not talk about that. It is too sad.

So here is a small sampling.  I bought the disc of all the images from the photographer and edited these myself.  I also took pictures myself while we were there.  We had these taken at the Korean folk village in Suwon.  It was so incredibly beautiful.  I wanted to take both my sister and the Hardings when they came to visit, but there wasn't time.  So here is a little peak.  Yes, Korea is beautiful my friends.  Talk to Nicole and the Hardings, they will tell you how amazing it is and how glad that they came.  I have so many pictures to post from both of their trips here.  I am seriously backlogged.  Time for another blog cleanse! smile.

So grandparents and family, you will finally get a family picture from us!!  It's a miracle.
                                                         I'll bring them this summer!  Can't wait!